Sunday, November 25, 2012

Post Thanksgiving!

I hope you all had a wonderful Thanksgiving!  We are enjoying this time together as a family, and decided to enjoy the beautiful outdoors by eating out at the picnic table!



I love when the weather cools off here in Texas.  I love being outdoors, but not when it's steaming hot outside!  We had a blast eating, talking, and playing as a family. We even went for a swing on the big rope/plank swing!









Molly Jo Jubilee slept through it all, so here's a shot of her after she woke up!



I have so much to be thankful for.  God has really blessed us... and continues to bless us every day in small and big ways!

Tuesday, November 20, 2012

Progress- working on the house

If you've been keeping up with my blog, then you know we moved from a nice newer home in a "sardine subdivision" (houses close together, tiny backyards) to an older trailer on 12 acres.  When Brandon and I were newly weds, we lived in a single-wide, three bedroom trailer, and once we moved out, I was sure we'd never, ever live in a trailer again.

Hear that? It's God laughing.

This place had carpet throughout (even in the bathrooms and kitchen), but was well-cared for and in great condition.  The carpets were ripped out before we moved in and replaced with an inexpensive laminate wood flooring throughout, except for the bathrooms where a peel-and-stick tile that you can grout was put down.

Three bookcases/cabinets were the focal point of the livingroom (see photo on far right). Those were removed, as was a little bar/cabinet that extended out from a bookcase separating the dining and living rooms (see second photo, that piece is missing).


The trailer has factory-sealed wallpaper- the kitchen and bathrooms are, um, particularly lovely, but the other rooms' wallpaper is more simple and not as ugly. Brandon and I have tossed around ideas on how to deal with the walls, and will do various things depending on the room.  It just takes a lot of time and effort... and money, so it will take a bit to get done what we want.  In the meantime, we have tried to make the home as comfortable and cozy as possible.

Sunday we reupholstered the cornices in the living room, and Monday I purchased new curtains to replace the blinds.

Before

After

The curtains were about $14 a pair, and I bought three pairs (each window has three curtains, one for each side, one for the middle) and I think we spent $25 on the fabric for upholstering the cornices, so for under $70 we brought a lot of warmth and coziness to the living room just by redoing the window treatments.

The two chairs in the living room were free.  They were in a lobby of a business who was getting rid of all their furniture and getting new stuff! Brandon asked for two of the chairs, and so, viola! They aren't something I would have picked out, but they do blend well into our decor and, hello, were FREE so I'm not complaining!

Brandon and I are planning on removing the vertical strips that are so common in trailers (which fill the gap between sheets of drywall).  We will tape and float the seams, and then do a thin coating of drywall mud on the walls to create a consistent texture. We'll do that in the living, kitchen, and dining areas since they are a priority and the main spaces of the home.  I'd like to put up bead board in the bathrooms rather than paint over or texture the wallpaper.  

Remodeling a trailer is actually pretty fun.  I'm thankful that my husband is very handy, and we're able to do all the work ourselves. Brandon has some connections since he works in construction, so we may hire some things out.

Little things can make all the difference, like replacing the dated brassy/goldish cabinet handles with beautiful brushed bronze ones.  (I have yet the replace the brass hinges, which show, but it's not a priority. I will probably end up doing a special paint treatment on them rather than buying new ones.)

I really love this place. I don't mind that it's smaller, and the kids haven't complained about sharing one bedroom.  It's been fun to work on our home little by little and dream about what we want to do and the best, most inexpensive way to do it!


Thursday, November 8, 2012

Happy 10th Anniversary!


I love your strong sculpted legs, your clean shaven, smooth head and thick masculine eyebrows. Your soft but firm lips, and how your arms wrap around me.  My hand fits perfectly in yours.  You are safe and sturdy to me.  I love the way you look at me. Your massages are the best.  I love the personal "gun show" I get every day as you flex your muscles lifting up children, moving furniture, or opening jars for me.

I love your sense of humor.  You have this ability to make me bust out in laughter no matter what's going on!  I love your playfulness!


I love how you tune into our children.  You are a wonderful father, and I'm so grateful that you are active in their lives.

I love that you consider me in the big and little life decisions (What will we have for supper? to Where should we live?) You're an awesome best friend- tender and thoughtful when you should be, kind and sweet, yet also a defender and tough guy when you need to be. You are amazingly intelligent.  You can figure out anything you put your mind to.  I really believe there are few things you can't do (especially with YouTube around!).

I love that I feel I can trust you- what you say about me, and what you do when I'm not present.  I know my secrets are safe with you- that you won't judge me, or use them against me.  You have always done whatever it takes to provide above and beyond what we need.  Most of all, I love that you love the Lord.  Thank you for being my best friend, love, and the mate I get to help!



Tuesday, November 6, 2012

Our Camping Trip!

We went on a camping trip with friends the first weekend of October. It was my first time camping.. ever, and I really enjoyed it! Here are some Instagram snap shots!


Keagan and Evie loved sleeping in the tent! They were the first ones (besides Molly Jo Jubilee) to conk out our first night there!


Of course I had to do the whole flashlight/face thing.




Our tent is the blue one on the right.


Nolyn and Merikalyn enjoyed exploring with their friend Bryan (middle). The night we got there, they went frog hunting!




In this photo- Joseph, Keagan, Nolyn, Bryan, Jacob (behind Bryan), Analisa, and Merikalyn enjoy splashing in the lake.




The weather was PERFECT.  Molly Jo Jubilee was the perfect little camper too!


Me with Emily


Jacob, Joseph, Merikalyn and Analisa






Jubilee and her buddy Joshua (Becky's son, a month older than Jubilee) enjoyed playing together.


All of the kids bathed in a tub of water we got from the fountain and then heated over the fire (in a big pot) to warm it up (since it was pretty chilly outside).  They all smelled like pond scum so they needed a good washin'!


I had so much fun hanging with these sweet ladies! (From left to right, Merikalyn, Me, Becky, Shae holding Samson, and Kelly.)


Of course we had some time to worship the Lord around the campfire. I'm glad Terry brought his guitar!


Becky's baby Joshua was a great camper too!



When we were packing away our stuff to leave, I caught Evangeline helping clean up....


Hahaha!


We had lots of fun! I can't wait to do it again!





Sunday, November 4, 2012

Wisdom- How do I fix my gaze?

Saturday I closed my entry with a nod toward Hebrews 4:16:

Let us approach the throne of grace with boldness, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us at the proper time.

This verse is really a great sense of direction for me.  Proverbs 4:25 tells us to "let your eyes look forward; fix your gaze straight ahead."  I've been pondering what it means to fix my gaze. How do I do that? What does that look like?

First, I have to recognize that "a fool's way is right in his own eyes" (Proverbs 12:15), and "there is a way that seems right to a man, but its end is the way to death (Proverbs 14:12). Therefore, I can conclude that looking to myself is not the answer.  I can see that my emotions and thoughts are often very fickle, unstable, and unreliable. Proverbs 14:16 states, "A wise man is cautious and turns from evil, but a fool is easily angered and careless."  It would be foolish for me to allow my emotions to steer my words and actions, or even to let my emotions run wild in my head.  I fix my gaze when I commit to surrendering my emotions and thoughts to the Lord, even my perceived "rights" in any given situation.

Hebrews 12:2 tells me to keep my eyes on Jesus the source/author/founder and perfecter/finisher/goal of my faith.  This reminds me that I am not the source of my faith. I am not the author of the book of faith. My faith is a gift from the Lord. He has given me a measure of faith and I am to be a good steward of it. (Romans 12:3, 1 Corinthians 12:9, Ephesians 2:8-9)

He is the perfecter of my faith. I rely on Him to refine me. I do not attempt to refine myself.  God has really made it clear to me that I am not even to go digging through my past- I am supposed to fix my gaze straight ahead. When I go digging through my past, I bring up old hurts, regrets, frustrations, fears, and whatnot that cloud my vision and often plunge me into depression.  I have seen the Lord work through my past, and His way is definitely better. He always approaches my past with tender love and care, and helps me maneuver through it gingerly, only dealing with precisely what I need to deal with at the time to resolve things that are currently going on.  That's exactly what He did in this specific situation not too long ago.  The Lord's goal in weaving me through areas of my past is always, always, always to bring healing to where I am right here and right now in order to perfect my faith and help me grow. So, in fixing my faith, I turn to him as the author and perfecter of my faith, relinquishing my desire to steer myself or to work things out myself. When I am tempted to refine myself through my own works, I put on the brakes and turn to the Lord.  When I am tempted to go work things out (whether in the past or current), I turn to the Lord and trust that He will guide me down that road in His own timing.

Back to the verse I quoted in the beginning because I just love, love, love so many aspects of it.

First- "let us approach the throne of grace".... not the throne of judgment or the throne of wrath.  Grace.  I do not have to be afraid of approaching that throne! I can run to it! I should run to it! I need to remain there.  Why do we approach the throne?

"That we may receive mercy..."  It is there I receive mercy.  I lay down what I have, and I gather mercy. Receive. That makes me all sorts of giddy! When I'm tempted to start beating myself up or giving myself a severe scolding, I remember.... there's mercy.  I don't have to go down that other path.  I can take the mercy that's at the throne. It's there, I just have to choose to take hold of it.

"And find grace to help us..." Not only do I receive mercy, but there at the throne I also find grace to help me take the next step, grace that helps me think, feel, and act as I should, grace that lifts up and brings healing. Praise the Lord for the mercy and grace which He generously offers and freely gives!!!

I fix my gaze by letting go of those things that would distract me, steer me off course. I lay them down at the throne, and receive mercy, find grace.

Lord, I am often tempted to fix my gaze on other things.  This is not how I want to live this life. I want to be focused upon You! I realize that, when I turn my face away from you, I am not believing or trusting You.  I repent, God! Forgive me for my foolishness!  I truly desire to turn to wisdom's discipline! Help me to listen closely to wisdom and direct my heart to understanding (Prov. 2:2).  I really struggle with that. My flesh wants to forge ahead, not stop and ask for directions or wait on You, Lord!  Wisdom calls out to me, "If you turn to my discipline, then I will pour out my spirit on you and teach you my words."  Lord! I really want that! I want to throw out my "mental hamster wheel" and fully depend upon the mercy and grace I find at Your throne.  I know your mercy and grace is available to me at all times, in all situations and circumstances.  I thank You that, because of Your goodness, I can come boldly before that throne to receive.  Oh Jesus, help me to surrender all things to You and fix my gaze straight ahead.  Even with the rapids of the ocean of life are licking at my feet and the storm is swirling around me, I know that I can walk on water when I fix my eyes upon You.




Saturday, November 3, 2012

Wisdom- seeking the Lord, not myself


Last week the Lord lead me to study wisdom. I'm really thankful that He gave me several pages worth of wisdom and thought expanding upon it, because I have definitely needed it through this last week.  It's so easy for me to get on my mental hamster wheel, I start running, spinning that wheel, trying to figure things out on my own rather than turning to the Lord.

Whenever I feel tempted to turn toward legalism, to a list of rules, the Lord calls out to me to seek His face and allow Him to walk His life through me. He is the Way, the Truth, and the Life.  No where in there do I see MANDY. It is Christ, and Christ alone.  I am to submit myself fully to Him. I am to be a vessel. I don't fill myself- Christ fills me.

Whenever I am hurt or wounded, whenever I am confused or feel misunderstood, Jesus calls me to come to Him. He is always a safe place.  I can trust Him.  Often I feel like withdrawing into myself, building up walls, and shutting everyone out- including my Lord.  I am not to build my own "strong tower"- Christ is to be my strong tower, my refuge.  He is my Ultimate Protector.

His Words are always uplifting- even His correction.  I can trust in His love.  I don't have to wear myself out trying to figure out what to do, what to say, why someone did this, or why this affects me this way, or... whatever. I can just lay it all at His feet knowing that, even if I had all the answers, it wouldn't bring peace.  Only Jesus can give me peace.

When I take off with my own thoughts and my own way, I'm walking down a dangerous path.  Wisdom calls out, saying "Fix your gaze straight ahead. Carefully consider the path for your feet."  Wisdom isn't telling me to figure it all out myself, to consider all the options and choose the best one.  Wisdom is telling me to fix my gaze upon Jesus- upon the throne of grace, to receive mercy and take hold of the grace offered to me by the Lord. (Hebrews 4:16)




Friday, November 2, 2012

Life in an Instagram

We are really lovin' living out in the country. I am so thankful that God is in ultimate control.  It really felt like we would never ever receive the promise He gave us in a vision.  I felt like we were waiting forever! (But nothing in comparison to Abraham!)

It's gorgeous out here, especially as the weather begins to cool (although, since we live in Texas, it can be 40 degrees one day and 90 the next!).  There's a lot going on, and hopefully, before long, I'll be able to tell you guys all about it!

What I can tell you is that Molly Jo Jubilee is getting so big.  Okay, so she's still really tiny (her little friends who were born around the same time are so much chunkier than she is!), but she is very mobile and very expressive.  The week before last she decided to perfect sitting unassisted and attempt standing (pulling up on things too!).  



Here she is using her sister as something to pull up on and steady herself!  She jabbers a lot, and has been saying Momma and Dadda for several months now.








(Poppa and Jube)

Our home is coming together.  We have a lot of cosmetic work to do, but it's not a priority right now.


(Above, a shot of the living room.  At some point I'll reupholster the window treatments!)

Here's some scenes of our country life!




























(With their friend Emily)




More to come, y'all!